Years ago in my single years when I was a wild savage in the world. I had a really good paying job and lived a carefree life. I was a non-practicing Catholic, self proclaimed ladies man and a weekend drunk.
So what does all of this have to do with seeking God?
I wanted to present a picture of myself before Christ. I also wanted to show how I wasn't seeking after God. I was seeking a worldly pleasure and didn't have any worries. At least I thought I didn't.
I worked in a factory back in Texas in the 80's and 90's. During my time there the Lord brought someone in my life who would never know how much of an impact he had on my life. He never knew that God put Him in that work place just for me.
The man worked in a chemical vat area where we blackened cutting tools. I would go into the area where he worked to talk and bring some tools to be blackened.
While I would go into that place I always noticed some scripture on a filing cabinet.
There were three that really stuck out and continue to be a catalyst of my walk today. Twenty something years later.
The first scripture verse is found in Proverbs.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6
If you notice it says that He "shall" direct your paths if you trust, and acknowledge Him while you don't lean on your own senses.
I wrote that word down and had it memorized in minutes. I prayed using that scripture. Again all the while going out and continuing to party. You see God was chasing and getting me ready for His work. It took a few more years before it took, but the seed was planted.
The other scripture was in Matthew.
"But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." Matthew 6:33
Again I wrote this word down and had it memorized in minutes. I still have the note where I wrote these scriptures. I did as I read in the word. I didn't have instruction from any clergy or other. I felt the Lord putting His word in my heart and I began to understand what was going on.
As I said earlier this was a process and it took a few years to take.
I never used or viewed these scriptures as a way to "be rich" or ask for monetary things. I prayed for things that would benefit my walk spiritually.
If I may the Lord saved me using these scriptures. I didn't pray any special preconcieved prayer and the gentleman who had these words written never talked with me about salvation prayers.
Another of the scriptures that was written was from Matthew also.
"Ask, and it will be given to you, seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.
For everyone who asks recieves, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened." Matthew 7:7-8
Again I had this word memorized in minutes as it really stuck out to me. I never used it or seen it as a way to become prosperous. I knew in my heart what it meant as the Lord put it in me heart.
The gentleman who had all of this scripture written had a hard life and God took him from a life of drugs, alcohol and suicidal attempts into a new life. And so the Lord used him to show me where I needed to be. The Lord took those precious words and increased the growth in my spirit all the while I was still partying.
I began to read my bible and praying. Something I never did was read my bible. In fact all I had was an old Good News New Testament. I will tell you though that that bible has a lot of tape and words underlined in it. I was hungry and fed on the word. Yet I continued in a life of sin.
Jesus had me, but He just didn't bring the net in yet.
I did come around and began to see things with my eyes wide opened. The Lord took a few scriptures written on a filing cabinet and some time to bring me into His kingdom. And to this day I praise God for that.
My old friend Dickie Thornhill was the gentleman who had those scriptures written down. I did attend Sunday school with him as he was a teacher and I went to services for a while. Again I remind you the night before I still partied. He was being a servant and disciple without realizing it. He never pushed me to make a decision nor did he get upset if I didn't show up all the time. A matter of fact I stopped going to church with him after about a few months. But I feel he knew that the seed was planted. I can only look back and see how far God took me after first meeting Dickie. I never had a chance to say thank you to him either.
Because a few years ago the Lord took him home. I loved that man in the Lord! Thank You Lord for Dickie Thornhill!
I really don't know if the Lord is seeking you if He is though. He won't give up on you if He has you in His sight.
As the old law enforcement adage goes. You can run, but you can't hide!
Adam and Eve tried to hide. God knew where they were. Just like He knows where you are.
You can't hide.